don't you just hate it when something small happens and it just gets completely out of hand and proportion, this has happened and im on the bad end of it.
some stupid chavs have been saying things to me, getting worse every day at school and now its getting to the point that i am actually scared. every single day i sit there and take their comments which i dont really care about, the thing that is getting to me is that i am now a target for food and anything else they can throw at me, well i say i dont care about what they're saying, i didn't but now the paranoia and fear that comes with being a target has just led to me caring about what they think.
it is so hard to go through the day at school with a fake smile on my face even though my friends at school know something is wrong, but it is harder still to keep that fake smile on at home. the last time i told my parents about being 'bullied' they got the police involved and checked how i was every minute of the day, i don't want the attention though.
the thing is that i know and they know that with every day of fear in a so called sanctuary, i am getting closer to breaking point, i nearly started crying today but i know i shouldnt show they are getting to me....im trying so hard to be strong for my best friends and my boyfriend but i dont know how much longer i can put on the happy face while inside i am dying